Well time to remove that old journal..
cuz im bored of it

as old as that old journal is..
i can say without a doubt in my heart..
I am there.. the place where i said i would get..
even tho i had no idea where it was.... i know now heh..

Im sorry to all the ppl i hurt in the way..
as complicated as it was after i could got over me being depressed cuz Tammy died, i promised myself i would never get depressed again.. so it was amazingly hard to let me realize i got into another one, and even harder to find out the why i got into it..
I know now what happnd.. and i made peace with myself.. once again..

Can't really ask a lot more that i already have to the ppl who is still there, even after i do that crappy move, of disappearing..
Ppl who still cares about me, and that showed me they cared even when i pretended i didnt care.. just wanna say..
Thank you.. im sorry for hurting you.. i really am.

I rmmbrd.. and i've been trying to practice what i've advice ppl to do so many times..
Enjoy life, smile and be happy..
dance when you feel like it.. and make a random stranger smile.. since smiling its rather contagious 6^^

tried offering some water to the police man that works around the corner of where i live now, and he must've thought i was trying to poison him with the face he gave me, before he smiled and said "No thnx"
But i saw the patch adams movie not so long ago and wanted to try his theory and it works! lol

I just came back from Chicago not so long ago...
walking and running around in snow that would cover my legs all the way up to my knees, there were 4 dogs staying at the house (3 rottweilers and a mix of border collie with newfounland according to me) but only 2 running around with me the 2 biggest rottweilers..
I fell down on the snow and made angels, while my bf was playing with the dogs.. heh dont rmmbr being happier... in my life..

there was a lake behind the house, trees with no leaves but covered in snow, snow ball fights.. and freezing for sure.. at temperatures like -17C
the cozy studio with a fireplace.. eating warm cinnamon rolls, cuddling watching movies ^^..

heh.. got carried away o.o!

gonna rap it up..

I wish everyone the happiness they deserve, the smiles to come ^^ and to stack up on happy memories..
can only wish for everyone to be as happy as i am..

Best wishes for this year!

and yes...
Peace is a state of mind.. *^^*


~Love is the answer for most of the questions in my heart..
like where do we go, and why are we here, and how come is so hard..~
Better together by.. uh.. some dude i forgot his name lol
Good song if u never heard it! ^^

ta ta!